Monday, April 28, 2008
ive begged for forgiveness..again and again..everyday..but you refuse to give it to me..ive realise my mistake..but you say its too late..ive tired my best to be happy..but i cant..ive tired my best to smile everyday..but i cant..my heart ache..real bad..youve done things that hurt me deeply..but i can do nothing about it..coz we are different now..i miss you..i miss the times when we spend it together..it really hurt..ache..im really suffocating over here..but you dun seem to care much..now..you dun even miss me..dun even send a goodnite msg..ive tried so hard to talk to you..but you somehow dun bother..it really hurt alot..frens ask me not to teared..so i cant..all i can do is to tear only when nobody is looking..including you..you wan me to forget everything..i just cant bring myself to do that..its all happy memories..im glad..to have known such a person like you..i love you..no matter wad..even after im dead..ive did many foolish things so to make myself happy..yes i do..i have to admit i do feel happy..but its only for a moment..soon your face will still appear..it hurt once again..im feeling weak now..needing your support..but youre not here..as ive promise..ill wait..till theres no tomolo..
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haix..you have move on..leaving me alone at the back..i really really do hope that thing doesnt happen..but i guess you gonna say its too late..youve got someone with you now..haix..seriuosly i dunno wad to do le..everything i do now seems to make you upset or stress..im such a ass to you rite now..you just wanna me to get out of your life..everything you say hurt me..deeply..i really have no idea wad to do le..i just need your support once again..but youre not here with me..ive teared..but you scolded me for doing that..im tired too..but i just cant put it down..coz i no i really do love you..its not as simple as picking up a pen and put it down..its not that easy..wadeva i do now..youre the 1st person i think of..i just dunno why..guess theres no more love from you to me le bah..but i dare to say that my love for you is still at 100%..no matter wad..ill be waiting..lending you a listening ear if you need..now..i dun think im able to ask you out anymore..so wad i can do is to wait for you to ask me out..i wonder..wonder when will you then read this post..ive got nth much to say..
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all i wanna say is..ill be waiting for you..and..i miss you and love you as much as i am do the past..
standing STRONG @9:57 PM
