Wednesday, April 23, 2008
things happen for a reason..for mine..it happen because some outsider ruin it..it happen the way it shldnt be..no longer the way it shld be..my heart ache..seeing you like this..making it worse..i teared..tearing is the solution for me..you dont listen..you dun tok..crashing away every single chances that i tot i have..im really sad..really sad..no one knows..i really do feel like tearing in class for a lot of times..but i cant..i promise to stand strong..i have to act infront of everybody that im happy..but actually im not..no longer..and it will nv gonna happen anymore..leave me alone..im trying so hard..real hard to play and smile..pardon me if i did a bad job..if i did offend any of you these few days..please pardon me..i need sometime..maybe a week..maybe a month..it may even take up to years..i no its gonna be hard..but i will still give it a try..no matter..it gonna hurt..it gonna hurt real bad..but..i can do nth..wait..??i will..ive promise to wait..no matter wad..meanwhile..i have to think of wad to do during the time when we usually spend together..praying hard..wishing you all the best..in wadeva you do..just wanna let you no..no matter wad..i will still be here for you..24/7..i promise..lastly..i love you still..
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argh..!!i hate myself so much..!!i cant hold it any longer..!!
standing STRONG @11:04 PM