lonliness

2009-08-21T02:07:00.000-07:00

something that i will love to tell you..!!

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go

But if I have to boy I think that you should know

All the love we made can never be erased

And I promise you that you will never be replaced (2x)

I love you ,yes I do

I'll be with you as long as you want me to

Until(until) the end(the end) of time(of time)

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together

And now I know I wanna be with you forever

I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids

Thinking never compare to the feeling of your kisses

I can say im truly happy till this day

You make me thank god that I live my life everyday

There's never been a doubt in my mind

That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes than I have to let you go

I think there's somthin' I should probably let you know

I enjoyed everyday that I spend with you

And I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby i love you and I'll never let you go

But if I have to boy I think that you should know

All the love we made can never be erased

And I promise you that you will never be replaced (2X)

I love you ohh yes I do

I'll be with you as long as you want me to

Until(untill) the end(the end) of time..

2009-08-18T01:13:00.000-07:00

hello..!!

im here to update a little on my bday..

didnt really celebrated this year..but with the loves one will do..

on the 7th of aug..

met up with the loves one..giam ying bing and vonn..

met up for dinner and headed over to butter..

it was an awesome nite with the babes in the club..

i had fun with them ard..

thanks babes..

on the 8th of aug..which is the actual day..

met up with the lesbo girls for dinner at aston..

chit chatted den headed to glora jeans outside cine to continue gossippin..

den after that i left and headed to meet the divas for club..

ok..this is the best clubbin experiance..

all thanks to the divas..

ok..im gonna end here..

pictures and more detailed post will be up soon..

i promise..

tata..

it feels good with you slping beside me..X)

2009-07-29T13:37:00.000-07:00

a day out with the divas was fun..met them and slack at starbucks for some catchin up..and head str8 for L4D..like finally..im killing zombies like finally..it was fun thou..hahhaha..more then 2 hours of L4D..!! after L4D..we slack somewhere outside cini..den decided to go somewhere to sit and chill.. so we walked all the way to the mac near far east.. sat there and started chatting non-stop..and we didnt realise that its so late..!! in the end..we stayed there all the way till theres train..fun fun..!! markcusT. like this..

betty and lisian..
the tall pple except for lisian..

veron..

*pple who attended : daniel, veron, louis, lisian, betty, rand

2009-07-19T20:47:00.000-07:00

i dont understand..

dont understand why izzit that some people can actually be so swit when they are trying to get to know another..

they can also be swit after knowing that person..

but not for long..

soon..

they turn their back towards you..

and throw you to a corner..

dont they know others do have feelings too..

they do get hurt too..

2009-07-18T01:05:00.000-07:00

this song keep playing in my mind..

and it just remind me of you..

i couldnt take the image of you out of my mind..

youre the one who introduce this song to me..

im going crazy..

i miss you badly..

2009-07-16T13:42:00.000-07:00

' i chose to believe in whats not true.. '

' im sad.. '

' really sad.. '

' i chose be left alone.. '

' =( '

2009-07-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

i guess its time for me to do some updates..im getting way too lazy nowadays..lazy to do many many stuff..1stly, all training has been suspended..thus..no trainings..it has been weeks since i last paddle..im feeling so small in size now..=( 2ndly, so so so lazy to attend sch every now and then..ive skipped most of the meeting 1 and reached sch only when its time for 2nd meeting..and after that..i even felt lazy to even do rj..oh god..someone pls help..ok..i know the only person that can help in this situation is me..god..im feeling weaker as time passes..oh ya..before i forgot..my bloody fone died on me..it totally cannot be on..=( using my mum's spare fone now..totally sadness..

wasnt feeling good these few days thou..due to some small issues..

theres just so much things that i would love to tell you..but..

2009-06-22T23:26:00.000-07:00

ncc is finally over..

RPC did a great job..

total of 1 gold 1 silver and 2 bronze..

congrats to all of us..!! =)
as for me..

was a bit disappointed..

didnt do wad i am suppose to do..

but ive tried my best..

next aim is gonna be POL-ITE games..

i promise im gonna improve and win something back this time round..

RPC jia you..!!

(more fotos will be up soon)

and..

today is ADELINE YUEN PEI LING's big day..!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL/HERO..

2009-05-27T22:34:00.000-07:00

ok..i got to declare my love to this lovely hero over here..

ADELINE YUEN aka HERO

without her..i dont know how am i gonna be like now..

i wanna thank her for everything..

thank her for lending me a listening ear whenever needed..

im really glad that we got closer and thanks for standing by me all the time..

anyway..this is wad happen..

during last sat junior trainin..

we had some relay games..

so i ran and fall badly..

brave enough..

i stood up and ran to the toilet coz i know im gonna bleed badly..

so i ran to the toilet..

using water to wash my blood away..

at the same time..

feeling damn giddy..

den..

i saw my hero,adeline running towards me with a first aid kit..

shes the only one that actually ran over to look for me and help me with the injuries..

seriously..

i am so so so touched by wadeva she did..

so as i was feeling giddy..

i sat and slowly..

my face turn white..

ade was shock so asked a few over to help out..

they stopped my bleeding and soon..

i felt better..

people who helped include gary, joanne, tomi and sihong..

really wanna thank them and at the same time..

sorry for the trouble..

now..

my knee, both hands, back and hips are injured..

i HAVE to recover asap so that i can train as NCC is coming..!!

lastly..

you know i love you..

adeline yuen..!!

2009-05-21T23:38:00.000-07:00

ok..im back.. =)

first of all..

NCC line up is out..

happy or wad..

i dunno..

im happy coz im able to paddle..

not coz..

we aint prepared..??

maybe..

NCC events for me are..

K2 500m..

K2 200m..

with of coz GaryNg..

haix..all i can say is..

we really need to buck up and train harder..

i just feel..

argh..nvm.. =(

oh ya..before i forgot..

that particular sat..after trainin..

a few of us actually went to celebrate Amelia's big day..

had dinner at glass house..

hope she enjoyed her day..

be it the dinner..or with the few of us at club..

and hope she like the present we got for her..=)

me with the bday girl..

canoeist with Joey and bday girl..

one more thing..

im really sorry to Asha and Sophia..

didnt accompany them to club today..

will make up to them soon..

and thanks for accompanyin me for so many sat..

2009-05-12T23:54:00.000-07:00

just a little shout out..pls support pinkdot..

for more information..

visit..

http://www.pinkdot.sg

2009-05-05T11:32:00.000-07:00

im tired..

tired from everything..

but..

worry no more..

coz i will stand up strong once again..

soon..

school has been hectic..

shorter breaks means lesser time to prepare presentation..

as for canoe..

the stress is gettin on me..

i doubt i will be paddling for NCC..

im sad thou..

but will work even harder for pol-ite..

k2 has been fine for me..

k1..im still struggling..

but able to paddle at least 1 round..

juniors are comin in already..

they had their try-out on last sat and sun..

hopefully they've enjoyed themselves with us ard in the water..

and today is their 1st session of land trainin..

we seniors will try our best to make this session an enjoyable one for them..

hopefully they will be able to commit and stay on with us in this sport..

lets all work hard and bring back glory to RP..

RPC jia you..!!

(i promise ill be back soon..)

2009-04-18T00:35:00.000-07:00

just a short update on whats going on with my life..=)

i just got home from school..

was in school for the past 3 days as OSG helpers for the FOP..

1st day was kindda boring..

was game station master all the way..

but..those close one actually stayed over in school together..!!

so we actually stayed up till quite late till i actually fall aslp without knowing with my lappy and songs on..

as for 2nd day..we woke up damn early..just to prepare stuff..

was game station master for awhile den head down to stadium for tug-o-war..

it was so so fun that all the OSG helpers just run ard and play ard..

after that..

its the most boring event for the whole FOP..!!

photoblog..

was asked to stationed at somewhere for nearly 3hours..!!

fall aslp thou..

after photoblog..thats the end of day 2..

got home..changed..and head out to party..!!

it was the best nite ever for that party..

head home and slpt till 10plus am..

was late for the last day of FOP..

upon reachin..they were just doing simple stuff..

after that..the domino ripple..

it was such a failure la..disappointment..

after that it was jam and hop till late..!!

comparing to last year..this year is so so so much way better..!!

we had fun dancing ard..

just one thing to conclude..OSG helpers did all the shit work..!!

argh..tml mornin still got trainin..

im kindda dead due to the FOP thou..

im like kindda lookin forward to trainin..but..seriously..too tired..!!

=( =( =(

2009-04-03T00:53:00.000-07:00

im so bored rite now..
the girls are out there clubbing while im stayin home..

trainin resume after MR500..
RPC did their best in MR500 and bring back glory for the sch..
seniors who have won..congrats..
others who have yet to win..lets work hard together this comin pol-ite..
bring back wads suppose to be ours..

got up K boat today..
K2 with gary..
was quite a fun experience..
the balancin and tapping of water just trying not to cap..
not bad..i can say..
we just need more trainin..
gym was fine..
4 sets of 8 reps..
ive got hell lots of fotos from MR500..but im so lazy to upload..
maybe a few next post..
the rest..??
go to fb..wahaha..

2009-03-24T20:22:00.000-07:00

FUCK OFF..?!?!

i was told to do so..
at that point of time..
i really do wanna get myself fuck off for good..
and never return..
i think..
this will be the best solution..

ive told you wad i needed the most..
but nothing seems to work out..
you dont seems to care much..
i dont know..
maybe..??
but ill never know..

i told you i will like to see you..
but nothing work out..
at the same time..
i came to know..
in the end youre meeting another person..

i dont know how should i react..
tell me..
yes..
im jealous..
coz i willl never want to share you with another person..
im selfish..

2009-03-15T23:59:00.000-07:00

to my dearest girl..

1st of all..HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to you..i do hope that you've enjoyed yourself during the small celebration over at my house..hope you'll like the stuff that you've recieved from us..

2ndly..i would love to say a BIG THANK YOU to you..

thanks for always being there for me..
thanks for being my listening ear..
thanks for holding on to me whenever im falling..
thanks for helping me in solving my problems..
thanks for pushing me to training..
thanks for encouraging me to paddle even harder..
thanks for pin pointing out my mistakes while paddling..
thanks for helping me in gym session..
thanks for encouraging me to pull myself up the bar again and again..
thanks for lending me money whenever im so broke..
thanks for sharing all the things with me..
thanks for tolerating me all these while..
thanks for (if i were to continue..i dont know how long will it take..so..) EVERTHING..!!

GAN..we've known each other for nearly 7 years..we've been thru many ups and downs together..we know each other so well..you've been a great fren all these while..thou we argue a lot..but soon after..we will always be there for each other again..so..

last but not least..i want you to know that..ill be here for you like how you are there for me..so..anytime anywhere..you can always ring me up..

I LOVE YOU..!!

happy 19th birthday, Edith MONICA Gan Sheau Jun Gan Neh Neh

2009-03-10T23:14:00.000-07:00

pissed? sad? happy? disappointed?

i dont know..

i simply dont know what am i feeling now..

complicated? mixed? or rather numb?

i will try..

try my very best to stay strong..

i stayed at home for the whole day..

fell aslp when fb-ing and listening to songs..

i was so tired..

both mentally and physically..

but guess what..

stupid enough to have wake up every now and then..

just to check my phone..

wishing there was a msg recieved..

but it was disappointment again and again..

finally..

i heard my phone ring..

was so happy..

took a look at who was it..

disapointment came next..

it was from someone else..

in the end i gave up..

waking up with my pillow slightly wet..

many things happened..

in such a short time..

i can hardly breathe..

i need you to hold on me so much now..

but i know its impossible..

nowadays my phone hardly ring during the night anymore..

just fcuk shit k..

if i were to continue..

its gonna be non-stop..

ps : sorry bout this post..

2009-03-02T23:04:00.000-08:00

ok..as ive promised..im gonna update a little..=P

some might know but some might not..

ive joined back republic canoe..

has been trainin with them for bout a month..

all i would love to say is..

dear teammates..

have faith in me..

i will do my very best in every strokes and paddle as hard as i can..

pull myself up the bar as many times as i can..

jia you republic canoeist..

anyway..

we, republic canoeist went for dragonboating on last sunday..

it was so so so fun..

we had so much fun paddling together in a new boat..

had fun cheering for each other..pushing each other..doing the hard 10 strokes together..and get the boat moving as fast as possible..

it was real fun..

last but not least..

please stay tune for updates on sentosa trip and marina barrage trip with cliques..

(ps. sorry for the short updates..busy with trainin nowadays..)

2009-02-08T06:00:00.000-08:00

time check : 5:53am

ive just ended a call..

a call that ive expected..

im happy that youve made this call..

but..

at the same time..

sad for some reason..

wadeva it is..

i am contented with wad we are now..

i nv dare to ask for more..

coz i know its impossible..

i just wish to see you happy..

be your listening ear whenever you needed..

be by your side when youre down..

i just want to be the person to cheer you up..

thats all i wish for..

and nth else..

thou there are times i wish for a little more..

but ive controlled myself..

im glad i did..

coz i will nv want this relationship of ours to get destroy by my doings..

so..

all i can say now is..

im gonna cherish wadeva i have about you..

im contented with wad i have now..

you never failed me make my day..

you never failed to make me smile..

hugs..

2009-02-07T03:24:00.000-08:00

just a very very short post..

coz i cant fall aslp..

just wanna say..ytd club was fun..thanks to you..

i know i shouldnt be feeling this way..

but why am i still doing so..!!

kill me please..!!

2009-02-04T01:26:00.000-08:00

ok..finally..im back for day 2 of cny..!!

so..previous day..i went out with xjun till damn late..and reach home only at ard midnite coming to morning..and guess wad..i have to wake up early in the mornin ard 9 for the lion dance thingy..!!
my job for the day was to take fotos of it..!!

b4 it come to our house..they went to our neighbour's house 1st..

after my neighbour's house..it then came over to our house..the boy holding the lion head is only 14 years of age..!!how young..

the 1st thing they did was to walk into all of our rooms..

then..started wadeva they are suppose to do..

ok..this pic is damn classic..i think..

here is how it goes..

due to the loud noise being produced by the lion dance..my dog Princess got scared by it..so we put her at the back balcony located at the kitchen..and we did close the door..

so..dunno which idiot..went and open the door..while all of us are happily enjoying the lion dance..Princess run out of it..and run into the room like a mad dog..seriously..its damn funny..

so..my mummy got a shock out of it..and chase after Princess..and protected her..like the foto below..

from the foto below..you can actually still see how my mummy protect Princess..

theres my mummy again!!

ok..thats the most happening thing that happen during day 2 of cny..

after all the lion dance..my dad mum and me got changed and left house for visiting..its quite boring thou..coz both my bros arent ard..now..i know how important are they..wahahha..last stop was at my grandma house at hg..usually we will gamble there..but not this year..coz bros wasnt ard..so..i slpt the whole afternoon slping over there..left ard evening..and shit happened..i dun wish to elaborate..coz its not something i wish to remember..just glad that everything is over..!!

wadeva it is..2009 cny isnt something im prepared for..many things happen during cny and it isnt something that im proud of..close frens will know wad happen..im happy and lucky to have them by my side..hmm..guess..thats all i wanna say now bah..

2009-01-31T04:51:00.000-08:00

im back pple..

firstly..i wanna say that i will take days to finish what i wanna blog about..

maybe 1 day 1 post..

if im able to la..

so let me start of with..

1st day of cny..

nth much happening thou..just feel that its weird about this year cny because both my bros arent in singapore for cny..eldest bro went taiwan with gf and family..2nd bro went back malaysia with gf for visiting..at the same time..eldest aunt was away oso..so its kindda different this year..quiet..??maybe..but at least i have my close cousin to tok with..so slowly..time passes..as the sky turn dark..xjun and bev came over to my house..xjun wanting to visit my mummy..at the same time had steamboat for dinner with them..after that..i got myself changed..and went out..

changed and went xjun house to visit her mum..her mum is always as cute..hahhah..slack at her house..and when its bout 11pm..we left her house..

took photos when we got downstairs..and the 3 of us really did happily take fotos..althou its random..but we had fun..

did you guys actually realise bev's eye and mine..totally cmi..coz i haven been slping much..

some solo full length foto of us..

bev

xjun

so after foto taking..bev went home..xjun and me took a cab over to town to catch a movie..got our tickets for bride wars at 1:50am..and we got there quite early..so we settled down at gloria jeans..recieved a call from my cousin and they told me they are comin over to watch the same movie as us..so in the end..we joined them for supper at the hk cafe..after movie..cousin drove us back home..was super shag by then..

to be continue..

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many things happen at such a short period of time..im in such a big mess..im such an ass..im really sorry to whoever ive hurt..i shall just disappear and never come back..

to the one who is leaving..: im sorry for being who i am..irritant..maybe..??soryy for buggin you for so long..making your life so difficult..i will remember wadeva youve said to me..and never will i forget the place where we had most of our memories..ive never felt that the place can be so nice..yes..althou its short..but ive enjoyed myself..and im gonna say sorry to you because..i did nth much but to cry and cry everynite..everywhere..can i still say..i love you still..??

to the one whom ive hurt the most..: same thing..im really sorry for being who i am..im just an ass..youve treated me so well..yet..ive hurt you so badly..as ive said to you..i will nv ask for your forgiveness because i know it myself..I DONT DESERVE YOUR FORGIVENESS..you deserve more then all these..youre such a wonderful person..i cant do anything to repay you but to really really say a sorry to you..and a big thank you for your care and love..

2009-01-24T19:43:00.000-08:00

am i being irritating..?!?!

i just wish to spend more time with you when i myself no theres not much time left..

i dun wanna regret anything after that..

i wanna make full use of wads left..

but wads the use when only one person is putting in the effort..

it takes 2 hands to clap..

you no longer seems interested..

youre not here when i needed someone the most..

maybe im just an irritant..

i shall take a step back now..

its time i guess..

2009-01-15T11:33:00.000-08:00

thou i really really feel like going with you..

but..

ive rejected your invitation..

after then..

ive regret..

i dunno whats stopping me from it..

i just dunno..

i really wish i can go with you..

2009-01-13T11:57:00.000-08:00

morning people..its 11:39am now..its such a wonderful day for me coz im not late for sch..wahahaha..actually..i have totally have no idea what to blog about but i do have the urge to blog..thus im so gonna be random bout everything..

there is this one day when me kel and xjun wore crocs to sch together coz of kel..happily bought her new crocs..den wanna take pictures..wahahhaha..

purple:me yellow:kel red:xjun

there is this one day..i forgotten when..oh..last sunday..went brisk walking with xjun and family..woke up damn early can..6am..!!hahahha..its so damn funny..coz her mum damn funny..

after brisk walk..we and xjun went town to get clothings..so walk ard the whole town..and met bev after that..walked ard..bout stuff..den bev went back home while me and xjun went gloria jeans to chill and chit chat..
xjun bought her headbend and happily took pictures with it..
as the "vainpot"..i myself tired it too..wahahha..it ended up not bad..

kindda like this pic..credits to xjun..

2009-01-09T14:22:00.000-08:00

one of my fav foto for the time being..

the only reason why im blogging now is im bored in class..super bored..with this faci..omg..so so so slpy..

anyway..my current pm for my msn is..

"i wanna get fit so that i can join canoe.."

motivated by xjun..i wanna get fit..pls help xjun..!!

people kept asking me to update..but i really got nth better to update..i dun wanna bored you guys with a post of wad ive been doing for the day..isnt it..?!?!like totally boring..

lastly..I WANNA GET HIGH..!!

ok..totally random..

2009-01-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

good evening people..

ok..finally im like blogging quite often..coz i promise SOMEONE to blog..!!you know who you are..hahhah..
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ive got super hell lots of pictures to upload..but smart me..collage all together..!!wahahhah..credits to xjun..!!
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on the new year eve(31/12/2008)..
ask xjun over to my house for dinner..had a celebration for my aunt as it's her bday..its a very happy occasion as its my very very close aunt bday..wanna wish her a happy birthday and may all her troubles will be over soon..bless her..

after the celebration and much delay at home..me and xjun went off to party..!!it was a great great nite out..

soon after we reach..dong came..it was even a blast when shes there with us..i really did enjoy myself hell lots with just the both of them..hope they did too..some might say..its countdown to new year..so why only the 3 of you..let me tell you guys..i dun need lots of frens..just a few close one will do..a few close one to be with is fun enough..people like them..totally brighten up my day..i love you guys..!!thanks xjun and dong for the nite..!!

anyway..we didnt have to pay for the drinks..coz..thanks to CEDRIC..!!wahahhah..i guess he will be smiling when he see his name appearing here..wahahhah..he treated us..

anyway..see that girl at the backgrond..the girl with the super red face..!!we totally have no idea who is she..and she appear in the picture without us even knowing shes taking with us..!!we totally LOL when we saw it..!!by then..shes gone..if not i will ask if thats her..wahhahha..its super funny if youre there..but i guess its not as funny over here..hahhahh..anyway..really wanna thank CEDRIC..thanks..!!

on the new year day(1st jan 2009)..
meet up with xjun yuan and litong..shop ard and settle down at NYDC for dinner..it was indeed another great day out with them..we can talk bout anything under the moon..!!hope they enjoy themselves too..took a picture with su and pauline too..NYDC hereen is closing down..kindda sad la..coz i used to work there..and by tml..it will be gone..haix..

soon..sky turn dark..litong have to go..so we departed with her..

in the end..me along with xjun and yuan went to party again..!!alrite..i know you guys gonna say AGAIN..?!?!yes..its again..hahhahh..we drink and got high fast..all of us..!!at the same time..cam-whored like madness..total madness..

sad to say..soon after..yuan have to leave too..and guess wad..we saw asha and gang there..they booked a table there..so invited us over..so drink even more..got even high..and till my limit..so i stop..hahhah..i had another great day..!!dancing drinking with them..!!met xiao yuan and minghee on dancefloor..such a idiot..force me to do something..hahhah..but i had fun with them along la..

im having late nite everyday recently..and sch is starting..how am i gonna switch back..!!omg..

anyway..for more details..please visit..

http://superxiaojun.blogspot.com/

hahhah..she blog more while i post more photos..hahhah..guess i will end this..shall blog again soon..tudus..ciaos..

2008-12-31T00:58:00.000-08:00

2008 has finally come to an end..2008 has been a..complicated year? for me..many things happen..shall not go into details..shall just pray hard that next year will be a better year..so..2009..here i come..!!wahahha..im glad that i have a couple for very very good frens by my side..like xjun..really wanna thank her..at the same time..get to know more people and get closer to more people too..now..im a happy man..

anyway..ive cut dye highlighted my hair..hahhah..took some stupid shots of it..so..ignore my face..

ok..i realise its not very clear..wahahhhah..

anyway..theres this 1 random day..i webcam with xjun to show her my hair..and did stupid things at the same time..hahhahh..

stupid enough..shall end this last post of the year..!!

goodbye 2008..hello 2009..

2008-12-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

nth much for the weekends..
just club with frens..
fri nite was with my dearest chinyun along with her fren michelle..
i have yet to get the others photo from her..!!
sat nite was with dong..!!
enjoyed myself when im with them..

coming new year eve..?!?!

2008-12-24T00:07:00.000-08:00

by right..its christmas eve now..
but yet..
ive got no programmes..
suppose to have it..
but..
just no more..
so..
MERRY LONELY CHRISTMAS TO ME..!!

and a merry christmas to all..!!=')

Eason Chan - Lonely Christmas -

2008-12-22T02:19:00.000-08:00

why am i feeling so terrible..!!

please help me with it..

im missing you like hell lots..

i just cant forget..

please give me a call..

i just need to hear your voice..

or rather..

date me out asap..!!

please..!!

2008-12-20T19:00:00.000-08:00

hmm..just something that ive always wanted to tell you..

Amazed - Lonestar
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Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
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I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
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The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes
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I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
.
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

2008-12-20T16:15:00.000-08:00

UPDATED

christmas wishlist..

(any santa kind enough..wahahha)

LAB series stuff
ray bans shades
shoes
fcuk tees
armani tees
agnes b wallet
agnes b tees
agnes b bag
belt
ipod classic(80gb)
ck underwear
wanting you back(the one i wanted most)

*more to come..wahahhah..

santa claus is coming to town..

2008-12-20T16:00:00.000-08:00

at this point of time..

you are the one i need the most..

but i can do nth anymore..

this christmas..

a lonely christmas..

if there is a second chance..

i will still chose to be with you..

2008-12-19T01:37:00.000-08:00

i kindda feel that today is the worse day i ever had..we contacted each other less then 5 times..you told me that you will call me..but you didnt..im fine with it coz you might be busy..so i took the initialtive to ask where are you hours later..yes..you replied..but soon after..no more..then..ive came to realise..i have got no idea where are you..where have you been..till now..i dare not slp..coz im hoping that you will call me eventually..i dunno whether have you fall aslp or still out with fren..i dunno..i really dunno..

that particular day..ive asked you..do you love me..no answers from you..im fine with it..coz its just the beginning..i hope to hear it from you one day..you asked me..why am i loving you so much..my answer to you was..i dunno..all i know is..i just love you..i can barely breathe now..i just hope time will freeze when im with you..huggin you so tightly..it gives me the feelin that you belong to me..only..im selfish..yes i am..coz im wanting you so much..i no..im like a burden to you..i just feel that im no one to you rite now..this might be silly..but..arghh..nvm..forget it..

*if youre reading this..im sorry..im sorry to have said all these..last but not least..

I LOVE YOU..!!

2008-12-15T23:54:00.000-08:00

christmas wishlist..

(any santa kind enough..wahahha)

LAB series stuff
ray bans shades
shoes
fcuk tees
armani tees
agnes b wallet
agnes b tees
agnes b bag
belt
ipod classic(80gb)
ck underwear

*more to come..wahahhah..

santa claus is coming to town..

2008-12-15T17:00:00.000-08:00

i love you..

i really do..

but who am i to you..??

tell me that you love me please..

date me out more often please..

show me your love for me..

hahhahh..

im kidding..

2008-12-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

nite pple..

just wanna update on this very day..6/12/2008..

a day where swit memories have been engraved in my heart..

this is the day when my closest cousin got married..i was so touched that i teared..finally a day when she found her true love and found a person who can take good care of her..tolerate all her bad tampered..i just wanna wish this couple all the best..blessed this couple with lots of love..

the wedding car..
me with the bride and groom and yina..
my family..
me and my dearest cousin..Stella..
my mum and Stella..

bro and his girlfren along with Stella..

yan with Stella..

me with Jaydon..

the flower girls and me..Lynelle(above) Malenie(below)

Dillion and me..

Ah-si and me

LiXian and me..

end this post with pictures of me and part of the cousins..

I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST COUSIN..STELLA..

im so missing you already..haix..

2008-12-09T00:10:00.000-08:00

im actually having mixed feelings right now..

wad can i say..

im feeling pissed..

and at the same time..

sad..

things aint going very right..

i can feel it..

i wish..

wish things will go smoothly..

pray..

pray hard that it will be smooth sailing..

i promise to make changes to myself..

2008-12-03T14:33:00.000-08:00

morning people..

im just so bored in class now..its 2.30 and faci is still not here..wasnt suppose to be in sch today as me and xjun planned to skip sch..but plan failed..so i came sch late..SO BORED..!!omg..

anway..just wanna wish SINDY a belated HAPPY BDAY..!!

ok..faci is here already..chao..

i miss you..and loving you so much..!!thanks for everything..

2008-11-26T14:40:00.000-08:00

just a short update..
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a new start..a new me..
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im like so tired now..in class..every now and then..im so reluctant to come to school..to think of school..it makes me puke..i just wanna see you everyday..=(..hahhaha..you just make me go gugugaga..!!hahhah..love you so much..hahhah..k la..

2008-11-10T16:00:00.000-08:00

good morning people..firstly..let me warn you..its dozens of pictures below..wahaha..so im gonna cut short with the words and just show you guys the pictures..so..enjoy..

on holloween nite..i treated victor to nite safari's holloween nite as part of his bday present..had so much fun..the people there are so damn cute..and god..its really damn fun..

showin you guys some photos of me and the staff there..

take a closer look and you can see the cutest amoung all..

taken during on tram on the road to hell..its hell fun there..

ok..ive made reservation for the 2 of us on the holloween tram..its a cocktail tram..so this is the dessert..forgotten to take pic of the cocktail..

after that..we walked ard and took some pictures..it was a great day..

end the holloween nite with one picture of me..muahaha..

cute rite..wahahah..(kidding..dun defame me please..)

on the 7/11/2008..i brought victor to ritz carlton for his bday dinner..made reservation for dinner buffet and it cost me a bomb..wahaha..but..the food was super duper good..had so much food..and ive enjoyed myself during the dinner..hope victor enjoyed too..

some of the food we had..

enough of the food..im sure you guys are drooling..wahaha..its nice..really..if interested..ask me for details..

ok..gonna show you guys some stupid pics..hahhah..below is the pic of the oriental food..its all covered thou..

me grabbing some food..

victor grabbing some food..

ok..ive made a surprise for victor..ive told the staff that its victor's bday thus asking them to prepare a cake and they took out the cake and sing a bday song along with the live band for him..

SURPRISE victor..hope you like it..

victor being irritated..

in the end..he enjoyed..hahhah..

making a wish..

end this post with a picture of us enjoying ourselves at RITZ CARLTON..envy leh..hahhah..

so swit of me..

2008-10-06T11:50:00.000-07:00

good morning people..

first of all..let me show some cam whore pics first..wahaha..

wahaha..okok..i think its enough..actually ive got nth much to blog about la..but some people has been askin why didnt i update..thus im here to update a little bit of it..

went bugis with xjun on one damn RANDOM day(29th sept)..seriously its damn random..we walked ard bugis v..and im kindda guilty coz i cause her not to catch a movie with her classmates..hahhah..coz she spend too much money there already..we simply just get stuff that we wan la..and it feel so good to have a catch up session with her..

on the same day..i rushed back home to celebrate mummy's bday..29th sept 2008..had pizza hut and cake..just a simple celebration..althou its simple..but i hope she enjoy it..
oh ya..theres this one day when i went haji lane with victor and nadz to just take fotos randomly..shop ard at the same time..last but not least..!!ive got my jersey already..!!sadly..#o8 has been taken away..thus my 2nd choice is #18..meanwhile..div 3 is coming already..just a few weeks away..so pple..watch out for RP and #18..wahaha..

XOXO, people..

2008-09-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

on one particular day..i went sentosa with my loves one..bing ying and giam..it was a very very last min decision..so..i went there with my big heavy bag..met them at vivo den headed into sentosa..had so fun much at siloso beach..got our mat ready and got changed..played volleyball..and all i can say is we are noobs..hahha..everyone there is like so pro..so we didnt dare to play with others..until theres a group of guys who came and approch us during the mid of our own game..so..we tot we are the really noobs at volleyball coz after pri sch..we have nv really played volleyball together..(FYI..we are in sch team for volleyball during pri sch k..and got medels one k..)hahha..but who knows..they worse den us..way worse..at least all of us know how to serve..they dont even know that la..hahha..so after all..we won..hahhah..just to sum up..is a wonderful day with them at the beach..we even went singing after that..and it was so damn fun..yet tiring as ive got sch the next day and i only reach home at ard 130am..hahhah..it was really fun thou..

on the 13/09/2008..victor decided to treat my mum a bday lunch..so we went raffles for the shokudo(marche style)..had so so so much of food..and im damn bloated..i cant imagine the amount of food we had la..after all..its quite ex thou..SO..WANNA THANK VIC FOR THE TREAT..after that..we went city link to get our shoes at pedro..im so contented with wad ive got..wanna thank mum for it..so..after that accompanied vic to MS for his haircut..and after that went back home..it was a fruitful day i can say..hopefully my mum enjoyed and wanna thank vic for that expensive treat..

ive already started my work..it was fun..yet tiring..legs breaking..hahhah..hopefully the next few session will be even more fun..and im so looking forward to the events that i wan to watch..hopefully me and victor got chosen for it..wahaha..

sch's a bitch..with irritating pple ard..but..it was fun with some pple ard too..you guys shld know who you are..they just kept me entertained..or rather..i entertain them..?!?!anyway..floorball wasnt as good thou..div 3 is just ard the corner..yet the team is still slacking..imcluding me..(like duh)all of them has got their jerseys yet ive not gotten mine..wad a shit..anyway..i hope we div 3 pple can prove the rest of the div that we can do it..so..stop lookin down on us..!!

2008-08-20T01:22:00.000-07:00

on the 3rd aug..the day when i really felt love and care..my family along with my closest aunt and my besties went out for a dinner to celebrate my bday..had dinner at a seafood place..had my fav crab..took some photos for memories..

me with my family members

me with my besties

my dad and my mum

my uncle..my aunt and my grandma

my eldest bro and eveline(his girlfren)

my 2nd bro with ah-yan(his girlfren)

kexian

xjun
victor
my bday cake from ah-yan

lastly..i wanna say that..im really blessed to have all of them by my side for this special occasion..
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on one particular day..vic and me went town to look for dong as she wans to celebrate my bday..so look up for her after her work..we went shaw to chill and took some pictures and she passed me the present..i was so touched..!!it has been ages since i last met up with her..miss her so much la..and wanna thank her for the presents..
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presents from dong..

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on the 7th aug..i met up with vic after sch to head to T3 for our lunch cum dinner..so we had pop-eye and slack ard..guys do cam-whored..so we did..hahha..
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after T3..we head down to expo as we are going to watch the high sch musical on ice..yes..just the 2 of us..isnt it swit..?!?!ya ya ya..thats what all the anon on my tag board wans to hear..so there you go..we had fun singing along and watchin them skate..it was the best on ice show ive watched..!!

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on the 8th aug..didnt really celebrate my 18th bday..just had a swit and simple meal with vic at yuki yaki..a treat from him..thou it was simple..but we had so much fun esp with the ice cream..wahaha..its a inside joke thou..anyway..wanna say a big thank you to vic for the dinner..
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9th aug 2008

on the 9th of aug..vic and me went for NDP'2008..all thanks to him..then i will be able to attend this year NDP..we had so much fun..!!

the weather wasnt really good that day..so it rain..quite heavily..till everybody have to wear the raincoat given..it was fun thou..

2008-07-29T23:33:00.000-07:00

chad
leonardi
kay
kay and leon
oscarderek

batch 46
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to be honest..i kindda miss these guys..ive enjoyed my times with them during sat class..they have nv failed to make me smile during classes..now..we have 'graduated'..which means..we wun be able to attend classes together..to sit in that super cold room..listening to jud and tud nagging at us..wahaha..its kindda sad..but guess..all of them have to move on..esp chad and leonardi..becoming the shine discovery..im sure its gonna be super stress but at the same time..fun..hope they will work hard and make us proud..

2008-07-22T00:30:00.000-07:00

yes..to me..life isnt as simple as it seems to be..isnt it true..??there are many issues going on and waiting for me to resolve it..isnt it so troublesome..
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hmm..many events happened for the past weeks..let me recall..i had a haircut recently..so bye bye to my long hair..holiday is ard the corner but im so not looking forward to it as RP IS ONLY HAVING A 3 WEEKS BREAK whereas other poly having 7 weeks..oh ya..toking bout RP..president came down to RP today..simply just to visit RP..anyway..im left with a few more UTs and im done..no more ut..wahaha..heard that UT4 is always the easiest..hope so bah..so ya..bout floorball..still trying to prove that i can do it..hasnt been seeing coach for the past weeks..dunno why thou..hmm..lastly..i dunno why izzit that many things happen to my family recently..im scared thou..thank god ive got b to be here with me..

2008-07-03T12:41:00.000-07:00

im feeling so stress up now..!!im in class now and trying so hard to figure out wad the hell am i doing for my presentation..its like..omg..coz ive missed 2 lesson of computing and math..and now i no nuts about VB..damn it..i need some help over here..HELLO..?!?!haix..nvm..ive got no strenght to tok..so wadeva faci ask..ill just nod my head..there goes my A/B grade..

2008-07-02T22:47:00.000-07:00

to you..

to love or not to love..i dare not think so much now..my answer will depend on what you gonna say to me..im just so afraid..afraid of the answer..somehow i dare not listen to it..but i think i have to hear it from you..it has been long..it has been 70 over days..nowadays..i dont dare to think so much..dont dare to think wad is gonna happen tomolo..i just wish the world will stop at today..esp when it is a day out with you..the happiness ive felt..it just melted my heart..but..i somehow know its gonna stop..the feeling will not last..coz i know the moment we parted from each other..its another story..today is the day..the day which no msg were recived by me from you..no direct tokin between us..today is the day where i felt really lonely..i came home even before school ended..coz im not feeling well..or rather..my heart dont feel well..the moment i step into my house..everything seem so new to me..i just dont know why..it hurt..it hurt damn badly..but as what you've said..i will pretend..pretend that everything was still the same before i even met you..which is about 1 year and 2 months..this is the only relationship which i can really feel love..the only one that i cant put it down..and the longest..i will continue pretending..pretending that nth has actually happen..rite now..im tearing once again..thou it sound dumb..but..theres nth i can really do..ive tried so hard..so hard to make you mine again..but ive always failed..im feeling lonely..very very lonely..people tend to make mistake..but to you..my mistake can never be forgiven..yes..i know..you've forgiven me lots of time..but this time round..i just need it so much..rite now..many many things are going through my mind..and im confuse..i can never sort things out again..you were once my priorty..forever my priorty..i will be waiting for your calls..lastly..please allow me to say this once more..i miss you so much and i love you..

with love,
markcus

2008-06-25T11:29:00.001-07:00

current position : classroom
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im so bored..bored to death..and hungry..yet im left with 3 bucks for the whole week..used up all the previous day..damn it..how the hell am i gonna survive..?!?!maybe its time to ask mum to prepare food for me and bring it to school..im so slpy now..cant wait for school to end..my god..i just need another break..another holiday for me to rest..im just so tired..tired of all the UTs..tired of travelling to school..and its only wednesday..gosh..how am i gonna survive till friday..i need some slp..!!

2008-06-24T00:31:00.000-07:00

ok..has been so so so busy nowadays..or rather tired..had floorball trainin today and i injured my elbow..and it hurts real bad now..those short sharp pain..omg..was so drained out after trainin..did try my very best to perform..and im proud of myself..coach even shouted "GOOD

BALL, MARCUS..!!"so proud of myself..hahhah..ok..im sounding quite cocky now..hahhah..but im really happy..ok..

has been watching movies recently thou..watched quite a number of it..AND AND AND..I FLUCKED ALL MY UT1(understanding test)..!!oh dear..look at the time now..and im havin ut2 tomolo..and ive yet to touch on the notes..!!gonna chao soon and at least flip thru..

lastly..i wanna intro you guys this 2 beloved bitches of mine..shaheedah and kelly..!!HEY..WANNA LET YOU GUYS KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU..!!THANKS FOR EVERYTHING..

im getting so sick and tired of sch..repeating the same thing over and over again everyday..!! argh

2008-06-08T01:23:00.000-07:00

ok..recently attended peeps class chalet..althou im not in their class..but they are kind enough to invite me thou..coz im close to them..hahah..it wa..erm..kindda fun..coz its them la..hahha..they made my day..however..didnt stay till the end..

heres the details..

1st day..

met up with xjun very late..den went over..had dinner with peeps den went to e-hub to walk ard and head back to chalet..wad we did is only drink chat play..thats all for the 1st nite..

2nd day..

woke up by natty coz she brought for us prata as breakfast..eat..den me and natty decided to go for a swim..so went without the rest as some still slpin and the rest cant..like xjun..!!wahaha..swim..den soon..natty gtg fetch her bf..den went up to bathe and stuff..den soon..the rest went to ntuc to get stuff for bbq..while i stay and waited for bbq stuff..so when its here..me and kaartik went over to get it and start the fire with kimmy..soon they rest got back..and bbq started..wads fun bout it is that..me and xjun bbq-ing..and we eat wadeva we bbq..its like..when its done cookin..it went into our mouth..hahah..soon..xjun suggest to me that we shld go get a cake for natty as during her bday..shes busy with camps..so cant celebrate..so..some of us went to get her a cake..i swear..i swear the cake is so so so damn nicce..i guess shes touched by us..hahah..simply she love us too much..natty..if you get to read this..wanna let you no that we love you too k..!!after that i went home with josh coz im too tired..

thats all for the peeps chalet..didnt post up too much fotos coz i look super unglam..wahaha..

anyway..kaixuan u18 got into the 2nd round..hopefully they will work even harder to secure a place in the next level..jia you kaixuan..

as days passes..im missing you even more..loving you even deeper..

2008-06-02T01:16:00.000-07:00

i have no idea if you will read this..but now..i just wanna say out how i feel..

firstly..you said that i lack in having experiance..but have you ever wonder..when did you give me the chance to try things out..??when did i really get to play..??how i feel when i got benched..??you will say coz i did not give you the feeling that you can place me down and give you the sense of security while others can rite..but think..when will i gain experiance when i cant even do it in this team..??you ever say that you fear of putting me down..it hurt..it really does hurt me..being a player of yours for dunno how many years and hearing you say that..it does hurt..guess im not up to it..even if i does..not to yours..coz you nv believe in me..nv allow me to perform..ive chose not to tok bout it for so long..but now..its my last year..and i can do nth but to sit and watch..and only get to play when the other teams arent that strong..i dunno..i really dunno is my exsitence in this team is important to you not..i will nv no..coz you nv show..now..wad i can do is to sit and smile even thou im not happy..coz ITS MY LAST YEAR..AND I WAN EVERYBODY TO BE HAPPY..

2008-05-26T16:08:00.000-07:00

damn it..im in class now..lookin at other teams presenting..AND..IM SO BLOODY SLPY..omg..have to rush over to kembangan lata for kaixuan u18 first match of the year..vs lengkee..pray hard that we will perform well and give it all out..it doesnt matter if we win..as long as we give it all out..no matter wad..KAIXUAN JIA YOU..!!

2008-05-23T00:58:00.000-07:00

hey guys..theres something i wanna say..that is..ive decided not to go for canoe anymore..not because it is tough but as wad yongann said..i will not be able to commit as ive got kaixuan trainin on every sat which is also canoe trainin..thus ive joined floorball..which is one of my interest too..went for 2 trainings and its tiring..lots and lots of running..its so gonna kill me..however..ill work hard on it to get into team thou i no its goona be difficult coz there are lots of ex school players..ive already look at the sticks and think im gonna get the purple blade..hopefully i wun regret..

kaixuan youth cup schedule is out..for more details..visit marcchen.blogdrive.com..do come support kaixuan..!!

gonna end this post with a video of the song you guys are currently listening to in my blog.."take a bow" by rihanna..

2008-05-19T00:10:00.000-07:00

today was a day full of basketball for me..woke up quite late..ard 130pm..had a quick bath and left house..had some veg. food from neighbour and zoom to mrt station..and guess wht ive found out when im already on my way..??IVE FORGOTTEN TO BRING SHORTS..!!was so panic la..called and sms so many of them..but all left house le..so decided to go there and them see how..tot ill be late but n the end im quite early..reached payalebar koven and walked over to the court with them..it was so damn hot..the sun was burnin..sat under the shelter and got ourselves changed and got ready for the match..xdx played 1st..wad can i say bout them..they are mature in their plays..but somehow not as good as they are during trainings..esp jinkai..was so hoping that he will perform well during this match..but it somehow turn out to be a disappointment..afterall..they won..won payalebar koven u16..80+ to 71 i think..mins after their game it was our game..didnt even got the time to really warm up..had the right side and den we were called out..start of the match..didnt get to be in the main 5..but its ok..im out there to cheer..got to play during 2nd quarter..didnt perform well..got changed out..den rest..got in at the last quarter again..this tme round..i told myself that i can do it..coz there is pple who i dislike out there lookin at us playing..so there am..doin so much better..did a back lay-up and im so shock that i actually did that and scored..!!was so enlighten..soon..was changed out again due to some mistake here and there..afterall..we lost..lost to payalebar u18 by 2pts..but overall..we did well..thou we are a new team..a new team as in a team made up of new players..but we still did quite well today..and was told that..WE DID DDZ PROUD..SHOWING OTHERS WAD KAIXUAN IS ALL ABOUT..!!kaixuan..yo..!!

2008-05-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

you're such a IRRITANT..!!

2008-05-09T21:47:00.000-07:00

i no im late..it has been ages since my last entry..sorry for the delay..was busy with many many stuff..its gonna take years for me to talk about everything..so gonna just cut it short..ive promise to blog more..so ill try..its the start of IG(=CCA)..joined canoe..trainin was tough..but i did endure..im so gonna work hard on it..school was fine..only when im with the clicks..i dislike my class..used to like..but not now..haix..not gonna mention names..but not everybody that im gonna dislike..however..i would care..will just do my part for the work and get out asap..theres some nice pple in the class..but some just irritating..haix..was actually out almost everyday..be it you or even the clicks..just love all of you so much..

ytd is the big day..ive enjoyed myself with you..wanna say a big thank you for spending this special day with me..and hope you like those things..thou its nth big..but ya..haix..

and to all my frens who were by my side when im really down..thanks for all the support that you guys have given me..showing me the care and concern..esp pple like xjun litong and kexian..not forgetting weiyan..thanks alot..

kaixuan u18..

2008-04-28T21:57:00.000-07:00

ive begged for forgiveness..again and again..everyday..but you refuse to give it to me..ive realise my mistake..but you say its too late..ive tired my best to be happy..but i cant..ive tired my best to smile everyday..but i cant..my heart ache..real bad..youve done things that hurt me deeply..but i can do nothing about it..coz we are different now..i miss you..i miss the times when we spend it together..it really hurt..ache..im really suffocating over here..but you dun seem to care much..now..you dun even miss me..dun even send a goodnite msg..ive tried so hard to talk to you..but you somehow dun bother..it really hurt alot..frens ask me not to teared..so i cant..all i can do is to tear only when nobody is looking..including you..you wan me to forget everything..i just cant bring myself to do that..its all happy memories..im glad..to have known such a person like you..i love you..no matter wad..even after im dead..ive did many foolish things so to make myself happy..yes i do..i have to admit i do feel happy..but its only for a moment..soon your face will still appear..it hurt once again..im feeling weak now..needing your support..but youre not here..as ive promise..ill wait..till theres no tomolo..

haix..you have move on..leaving me alone at the back..i really really do hope that thing doesnt happen..but i guess you gonna say its too late..youve got someone with you now..haix..seriuosly i dunno wad to do le..everything i do now seems to make you upset or stress..im such a ass to you rite now..you just wanna me to get out of your life..everything you say hurt me..deeply..i really have no idea wad to do le..i just need your support once again..but youre not here with me..ive teared..but you scolded me for doing that..im tired too..but i just cant put it down..coz i no i really do love you..its not as simple as picking up a pen and put it down..its not that easy..wadeva i do now..youre the 1st person i think of..i just dunno why..guess theres no more love from you to me le bah..but i dare to say that my love for you is still at 100%..no matter wad..ill be waiting..lending you a listening ear if you need..now..i dun think im able to ask you out anymore..so wad i can do is to wait for you to ask me out..i wonder..wonder when will you then read this post..ive got nth much to say..

all i wanna say is..ill be waiting for you..and..i miss you and love you as much as i am do the past..

2008-04-23T23:04:00.000-07:00

things happen for a reason..for mine..it happen because some outsider ruin it..it happen the way it shldnt be..no longer the way it shld be..my heart ache..seeing you like this..making it worse..i teared..tearing is the solution for me..you dont listen..you dun tok..crashing away every single chances that i tot i have..im really sad..really sad..no one knows..i really do feel like tearing in class for a lot of times..but i cant..i promise to stand strong..i have to act infront of everybody that im happy..but actually im not..no longer..and it will nv gonna happen anymore..leave me alone..im trying so hard..real hard to play and smile..pardon me if i did a bad job..if i did offend any of you these few days..please pardon me..i need sometime..maybe a week..maybe a month..it may even take up to years..i no its gonna be hard..but i will still give it a try..no matter..it gonna hurt..it gonna hurt real bad..but..i can do nth..wait..??i will..ive promise to wait..no matter wad..meanwhile..i have to think of wad to do during the time when we usually spend together..praying hard..wishing you all the best..in wadeva you do..just wanna let you no..no matter wad..i will still be here for you..24/7..i promise..lastly..i love you still..

argh..!!i hate myself so much..!!i cant hold it any longer..!!

2008-04-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

sorry for the late post..

lets tok about school 1st..school was fine so far..some of the classmate were great..had so much fun while workin on presentation with shaheedah and kelly..the 3 of us just play thruout the entire day..wahaha..took damn lots of pictures and added them into our presentation..we just cant stop laughing at it..hahaha..was so jealous bout xjun class..their class bonded so well..even went out to have lunch together..they've invited me all the times..so i joined them..but somehow feel weird just becoz im not in their class..but i still enjoyed the times with them..them are just a bunch of crappy yet fun group of pple..eg my tong tong, peipei and weiyan..wahaha..anyway..had ig orientation during the wed till fri..went to look ard and decided to sign up for a few..hopefully i will get into something that i wun regret and enjoy it..

class W24P

shaheedah, kelly and me

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ok..now..i have no idea wad to tok bout thou..hmm..has been heading home late these few days..wen out almost everyday after school..wahaha..anyway i miss kexian..hasnt been goin out with her these few days..miss her jokes..i miss you too..had lesser time to spend with you le..im feeling sad bout it..haix..and to minghee..dont be sad and dun think too much..ill be here..need anyone to tok to..can just sms me or gimme a call..

ok..im so gonna promise that ill blog more often k..shall update you guys with wad im so busy with..wahaha..so yup..bye..

2008-04-05T01:39:00.000-07:00

RP orientation was tiring thruout these 3 days..the only thing i hated most is NO PICS..so damn irritated..just becoz its so troublesome to bring along your fone with a pants without pocket..nvm..let all the typin do the work..hahhah..

.DAY 1 of RP orientation.

parted with xjun when we got to our blk W2..im in class P while shes in B..was actually very enthu bout the orientation..but when i got to see my classmates..it totally change my mood..they are so dead..but its ok la..coz its the 1st day..shall wait and see..theres this one damn irritating girl in my class..keep askin stupid question and tot that she very pretty kind..and tryin so hard to attract attention..just hate it la..but who cares..not in my team..got so bored until i wanted to webcam with xjun..but she didnt wan it..luckily everything ended quite fast..got out of rp with xjun den met weiting and vic..went mindcafe..had so much fun there..few hours after that..everybody got tired..so we left home..

.DAY 2 of RP orientation.

was so excited today..becoz we got to meet all shl students..me and xjun were late..played some games and i went changin to sports attire while the head of shl is tokin..when i got back..the tok ended..just nice..so after that..we got to team up in 10s..me and xjun parted..shes in the other team..got to no my team members..they are great pple..outspoken and fun..and our sl..DARCY..soon..my team and xjun team merge together..im like so damn happy la..hahhah..den ended up playin a mass game..blow wind blow..this is the part where i enjoyed myself the most la..after that is all ice breakin games..den everything ended..me and xjun went to have a bath den went out to meet weiting at imm to have dinner..den i went over to xjun house to stay over so that we can go sch the next day together..

.DAY 3 of RP orientation.

as usual..we were late again..this time round..very late..reach there only when everybody had already put their bags in the room..we i got chnage and put our bags in that room too..got back our groups and same..my team and xjun team merge..and got ourself a team name..UNITY..played amazing race..and after that train our cheer..got to learn the shl cheer and rp warcry..had so much fun..but seriously..tirin..soon..we went up to the lawn to break a record..THE LEAPFROG RECORD..and we were published in the newspaper..so damn cool..so im proud to say that..IM A RECORD BREAKER..!!wahaha..after that..had dinner..and its buffet..soon..its jam and hop..all other schs come together to compete..and sad to say..shl lost to rsh again and got ourself 2nd again..and shl is so damn angry becoz only shl are being restricted to only 20 pple allow on stage..yet the rest didnt..but nvm..we did try our best..after that..some IG performed such as hip hop IG etc..and den dancefloor is open..went home with xjun and geraldine after that..and boom..onto bed..

overall..its still quite fun..enjoyed myself..and wanna say a big thank you to my team for making me enjoyed myself..lastly..SHL..!!AHWOO..!!

2008-03-26T01:29:00.000-07:00

i promise myself not to tear again..but im sorry to say that..i did..once again..i just cant hold back..nv did i expect this to happen..but afterall..it still happen..all blame myself..

2008-03-23T13:55:00.000-07:00

im at work now..and im feelin so sick..dunno wads wrong with me thou..haix..
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feelin so damn unlucky this few days..i lost my fone when im on my way for mornin trainin ytd..damn it..there goes my dearest 880i..haix..

but..overall..theres something that make my quite happy..which is my hair..ive died back to black..but this time round..with dim blue..so its call blue black..hahah..shall show you guys..

before

after..not very clear thou..

2008-03-20T00:20:00.000-07:00

im so excited..im gonna cut and dye my hair..wahaha..hopefully it would turn out to be nice..wahaha..*wondering*..if its nice..gonna thanks xjun..if its not nice..xjun gonna get it..!!wahaha..coz she intro me to her salon..hahhah..

had so much fun with this lappy..hahhah..

to you..:

dun sad le la..your lappy gonne be alrite oso de k..and..yours super duper nice la..so dun complain..hahhah..

will be workin on sunday..which i kindda look forward to..hopefully the sales will be good..if not..im gonne get it from jing(boss)..

went town today with mum and vic..got myself 1 polo-t from levis and lappy bag..so happy..task accomplished..hahhah..walk ard and took cab home..kindda guilty coz mum paid for the cab fares..and wanna thank vic for lendin money for my lappy bag..thanks so much..really dunno wad to blog bout..so gonna end here..see ya..

2008-03-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

short short post..!!all i wanna say..ive got my lappy..!!and im using it now..to update..nth much thou..just update coz from wad ive hread from xjun..MATT is complaining that im not updatin..!!so ya..MATT..im updatin just becoz of you k..!!irritating..hahhah..

2008-03-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling..upset..haix..just nth can be used to describe how i feel now..

ok..being accused is the word..worse of all..being accuse for a reason that i dont even no..how glad..i tot the 1st post would be a great one..but now..im unsure bout it..please..let everything be how it shld be..

tearing without a reason isnt that great afterall..so i shall stop..and be strong..on and off court..and I WILL..!!